It is time yet again...

For a 15.

1. Talking to you for two hours isn't helping me in avoiding liking you. But it sure as heck is helping me to like you. A lot. Just give me some sort of sign or hint or something!!! Please???
2. I miss you. Hooray for the hockey game on Saturday as long as you tell me what time it is!!
3. I can't tell if I like you or not. We've talked a lot lately, but I just don't know. There are some things I find attractive, but the fact that I can't get my mind off of someone else isn't helping.
4. Thanks for making camp so fun! You totally rock!
5. I miss you too! Why should FRYS be cancelled this week??? I haven't seen you in like 3 weeks!!!!
6. I don't know what I should do. You hardly act like I'm your friend sometimes. You talk to her about things that you used to talk to me about. It's making me sad.
7. You're heartless. And it's your fault, not mine.
8. I'm sorry I don't like you the way you like me. It's hard to be in your position because, believe me, I've felt the same way before.
9. You really need to understand that the point of that class is to come and enjoy and have a passion for it, not to complain about going all the time. Why'd you even sign up for it????
10. I'm sad you didn't go to camp. I felt like I was missing an arm or some thing.
11. You could always try being nice and fun. Then maybe so many people wouldn't quit.
12. I miss you. And I may say things to you that I don't mean, and you should know that because you're one of my best friends!
13. Curse you all for not giving me that cello!!!!
14. I'm really really really sorry that what I said upset you so much. I really truly didn't mean any of it.
15. Thanks for going! I'm glad you could, even if you think that I'm not.

Getting your wisdom teeth out SUCKS!!!

Just thought you all should know that... haha

So, I'm rather ticked off at a certain someone right now (Alli and Kayla know who) because she's being stupid. I'm not gonna ask her out anymore, but she still is being lame. And I just want to be her friend even. I wish it could be more, but it can't. So tough luck for me. But still. She's being extremely lame to me. But that's okay. I'm trying to just not have a crush on anybody. It certainly makes life a lot easier. I can focus on other stuffs.

I also am major failing at practicing. Yikes, it's scary. haha.

Hooray for FRYS. It saves lives.

Hooray for Wisdom teeth pain going away! It makes Jake much happier.

Not so hooray for looking back at old facebook messages. Definitely feel really lame after reading all of my old ones to a certain someone. Not so much to her, but to me. Making all of these promises that I couldn't keep. I definitely learned a lot from that relationship, and one thing I know is that I can't look at it in a bad light. It was definitely a very good relationship, even if it had to end badly. But when you're as attached as we were, it's hard not to end it that badly. But it had to be done. End of story.

Anyway.... college apps can die!!!

Just lemme in already!!!! Please?????

15? Why yes, thank you.

1. I wish that you wouldn't push me away. I really really really really like you, and I'm too scared to say anything. Just give me some sort of sign or hint that would tell me what's going on. I really just want to know!
2. Thanks for being a rant-taker. It really does mean a lot, especially when I'm using a lot of self-pity. You deny that and that's what makes you an amazing friend!
3. Thanks for all of the courage. And all of the confidence you have in me. And thank you for being one of my best friends in the entire world. And a fantastic date!
4. I know you want me to do it, and trust me, so do I, but it's much more complicated than that. I'm glad you have faith in me, and will talk to me when I need it.
5. See number 4.
6. You're changing. We don't have the same sort of connection we used to have. I'm not sure if it's because of the incident over the summer, or if it's because you're not in any of my classes, or if it's because I'm just not cool enough to hang out with anymore. If you would just tell me, I'd like to know.
7. I'm sad we barely work together anymore... I miss working with you, buddy!
8. Don't ever do that to me again. I have this issue where if I can't find my cello, I get really really really pissed off. I know it's all in fun, but fun can turn deadly when I find my cello on the ground in a million peices. I'm sorry for the things I said, but I'm just reiterating the point that you should never do that again.
9. I know you like me a lot, but I don't like you like that. I'm really really sorry. The stalker thing kind of needs to stop though.
10. I wish I could like you, instead of who I like. That would make things less complicated right now. But I don't.
11. Yay! You save me from the dreaded Sean!!! Oh, by the way, congrats.
12. You and I are seriously twins. We have so much in common, and I know what it's like to feel how you feel. I'm sorry that things are tough and I know what you're going through. Just hang in there! It'll get better!
13. You need to stop being so immature. Grow up and make your friends respect you a little bit more!
14. I'm kind of mad that you question my choices. You're supposed to be happy with whatever I do. That's your job! Then again, you are sort of a creepster.
15. You could be just about the best conductor alive. You rock. You give me yet another incentive to go there.

Alas, I was hoping I would make it through this year without having any sort of mental breakdowns or sadness.... unfortunately I'm wrong...

A 15. Much like Allison's

I feel that Allison had a very good idea with her blog. So here's my lovey-dovey style 15!

1. You are so much better than you say you are. I secretly think you know that, and that's what makes you so special. Because you are so humble about yourself. Oh, and by the way, you're just about the most beautiful person inside and out, and you mean a lot to me!
2. Even if your girlfriend can be a heartless, controlling jerk, you still stick with me and are still one of my best friends. You always have something funny to say and that's really really cool.
3. Thanks for always being with me when I needed someone to talk to, and thanks for not being a heartless jerk and giving our friendship a chance, even when it seemed like it might end. We're such good friends and I never want that to change. You're so smart, and funny, and friendly. I really like that about you!
4. If only we could see each other more often. I often find myself contemplating why we aren't better friends, and this is the only reason that I can think of. WE ROCK!!!
5. Even though I may creep you out a bit sometimes, you never let me go as a friend. We've been friends for so long, and it's meant a lot to me that you've been there for all that time. Thanks for being a great pal!
6. We've grown a lot closer over the past few years, and I think that we have a very good and strong friendship. You're so kind to everybody, and you always remember the little things and that's really really awesome. You're a great friend!
7. You never judge a book by it's cover. You always were my friend, even when I did something ridiculously stupid. You always have treated me as part of your family, and I really appreciate that.
8. You're so outgoing and friendly and fun to be around. Don't ever stop!
9. You've had some troubles in the past, but you've got a golden heart and that's all that really matters when it comes down to it!
10. You've always been my friend. Since I can remember way back in the day. You're always so supportive and fun to be around. I enjoyed the days we spent in your house playing video games and being Harry Potter (lol!). Don't stop being such a great person!
11. Don't let the world push you down. And never ever EVER again say that you aren't smart enough for something. Because it's a lie. You really are a complete genius, once you get going and don't give up!
12. Thanks for all of the gifts over the past few years. I owe you big time!
13. Thank you for loving me no matter how crazy I can be. I know that we can be crazy together and that's all that really matters!
14. You always have that "Glass is half full" mentality, and that makes you a great person. You are a very hard working person, and you always come out successful! Way to be!
15. I think I love you. Because you're so truly amazing in ways that nobody else can be or will be. You're such an innocent and cute person, and you have the best personality of anyone I know. You're gonna be a fantastic grown-up some day!

A 15? Sure, why not?

1. Stop letting her influence you so much. You always let her walk all over you. I liked you better when you were by yourself.
2. You are like, the hardest girl to like in the world because I can't be the guy you liked last year. I can try all I want, but it just won't happen. I've tried to get over you before, but it keeps getting harder and harder. It really kinda sucks. You send a LOT of mixed messages, btw.
3. Best homecoming date EVER! Somewhere else...
4. Also, best homecoming date EVER!
5. You choose unfair teams. Not cool. lol
6. I'm sorry, but I really don't want you around. This is because I don't like the way you treat my friends, I don't like how everybody loves you and nobody loves me, and I especially don't like that you can just come back and take away from me what I earned. Not cool.
7. I miss you. Come back. SAVE US!!!
8. I don't understand why everyone thinks you're annoying. You really aren't.
9. So, I think I might like you... which is just a slight problem.
10. Sorry if I was showing off. I don't ever really mean to... but you could be there too you know...
11. I'm glad you'll be my friend no matter what. It rocks.
12. grr... why do I like you so much??? Well, actually I can think of some good reasons...
13. Understand that just because I don't practice every single solitary second of every single day doesn't mean that I'm going to suck... seriously...
14. Thank you.
15. You're welcome.

Wow... an interesting one this week, children. Anyway, I hope you all enjoy your homecomings! I know I will (courtesy of Alli and Kayla)!

15 old school, yo!

Here's a 15 so that I may have updated this in the past 15 months...

1. I never thought I'd get over you so fast. But I did.
2. Go to hell and stop being such a bitch!!!!
3. For some reason, I'm really really into you. I mean, I can think of some reasons, but still...
4. See number 3.
5. It's up to you really. Pick a side. I would prefer if you picked mine, but... you don't have to.
6. You're actually a lot cooler than I thought you were. Fun to be around lately.
7. I worry about you sometimes.
8. You're fun to push around. And you're a good bodyguard.
9. It sucks that this is going to be over, and I might not see you again for a long time... that'll really suck I've decided.
10. I thought you were going to be really stuck up and snooty, but I was wrong! You're pretty awesome.
11. You are our secret weapon!!!!!
12. Learn how to count, please.
13. Thanks for believing in me.
14. You've inspired me beyond all reason. I think it's because of you that I haven't given up at all this entire week.
15. You are seriously one of the best people to hang around with. There is never a dull moment with you!
16. I know it's more than a 15, but to reiterate my point: I totally like you and I'm not going to deny it!!!!

Time to expose the inner thoughts of Jake's mind

So... blogging time!!!

Let's see... what has happened since April 8?... huh...

Well, first of all, I'm happy to announce that April 24th was Katie and I's one month anniversary type thing. She means so much to me and she's just perfect!! ah... I'm in love.

Anywho... uh... I had solo and ensemble today. That was fun. I played well, at least well enough to get a 1. Which isn't very hard in the first place.... lol

One of my favorite thing about solo and ensemble is spending time with people. Most notably Katie. I also love listening to other people play and stuff like that. It's always nice being able to listen to my friends play, even if I did miss Ivanna's. Sad day, I know.

Oh man... and Katie and I have been hanging out a lot lately. I can't even begin to describe how happy I am with her. She is my life. She is everything that is important to me and I love the feeling I get when I'm around her. She makes everything good and right and fun. She's just so..... ah.... amazing!!! I love her so so so much!!

Anyway, it's late. More soon, hopefully!